What I am like..

So I was going through class folders to dig out something that I can use for the "portfolio", and came across the "Enneagram" that the weird life coach(??) lady gave out at the leadership conference at the beginning of the semester. (Anybody remember that??) I got curious and googled it because I never got to find out what my personality trait is, and easily found it (http://www.enneagraminstitute.com/QuestTest.pdf). You can get the detailed explanation at http://www.enneagraminstitute.com/

I am quite surprised (freaked out) at what I found out... Here are my top 3 primary personality type, #4 being most like me:

4. The Individualist. The introspective, romantic type.
Fours are self-aware, sensitive, and reserved. They are emotionally honest, creative, and personal, but can also be moody and self-conscious. Withholding themselves from others due to feeling vulnerable and defective, they can also feel disdainful and exempt from ordinary ways of living. They typically have problems with melancholy, self-indulgence, and self-pity. At their Best: inspired and highly creative, they are able to renew themselves and transform their experiences

5. The Investigator. The perceptive, cerebral type. Fives are alert, insightful, and curious. They are able to concentrate and focus on developing complex ideas and skills. Independent, innovative, and inventive, they can also become preoccupied with their thoughts and imaginary constructs. They become detached, yet high-strung and intense. They typically have problems with eccentricity, nihilism, and isolation. At their Best: visionary pioneers, often ahead of their time, and able to see the world in an entirely new way

8. The Challenger. The powerful, aggressive type. Eights are self-confident, strong, and assertive. Protective, resourceful, straight-talking, and decisive, but can also be ego-centric and domineering. Eights feel they must control their environment, especially people, sometimes becoming confrontational and intimidating. Eights typically have problems with their tempers and with allowing themselves to be vulnerable. At their Best: self-mastering, they use their strength to improve others' lives, becoming heroic, magnanimous, and inspiring

So I'm most like a ...damaged loner who thinks they are something special, but still full of self-doubt and self-pity?? Man it's so depressing! It almost seems like I got the most negative/problematic personality listed there. But the real sad thing is, I can really relate to A LOT of things that the "detailed explanation" says about the type #4. >:(
Of course, I disagree with some of the things that it said, but this has been one of the most accurate personality tests that I've done. Kinda scary even.